...a big fat failure!!!!! Somedays it is overwhelming. Currently I am a wife, a daughter, a sister, a mommy to furbabies, a friend, a neighbor, an employee, a coworker and a volunteer. How do I do all those things well, at that same time? Is it even possible? Probably not if you are me; a Sarcastic, pessimistic, slightly angry human being. People have expectations of you, I have expectations of others. Normally zero expectations are met. I feel like those ants on the bathroom floor, walking & wondering, wondering & walking, in fear that at any moment I will be stepped on (by life of course not a real human being, I mean I know i'm short and all but you would have to be a large giant to step on me without me knowing it was coming), no real agenda or goal other than to not lose my wretched life. You know what bugs me, I don't mind being stepped on by accident (again figuratively not literally) b/c I have stepped on people before. I do not like being stepped on, on purpose. I try not to do this, I'm sure I have occasionally, but I do not make a habit out of it. Some people live to step on others. Well this was depressing. I'm going to blame it on the nasty weather.
In other news, I am almost done Christmas shopping. I have a few artsy projects I am working on or need to start, but no more dealing w/ crazy people shopping on the weekend. I have a lovely party to go to this Saturday w/ some lovely friends. I'm looking forward to that. Survivor finale is Sunday and friends will be over to play games and eat and watch the finale. Next Wednesday we are going to Riverstone Chophouse for my husbands 25th birthday. I am very excited.
We watched Wanted on Wednesday. That was a lot of W words. Anyway, it was very good. I am truly enjoying our Netflix membership. They really do ship fast.
Don't tell anyone, but I love having a newborn at my house every Thursday. I will be 26 next year and I'm starting to feel like I need to at least start thinking about having kids. Jared pretends he doesn't like holding her but he does and he does a very good job. The dogs have been doing very well w/ her. They love sniffing her endlessly. Although, Sarge got kind of jealous last night and after she left, he refused to lay on the couch w/ us. So funny. He will get over it. I've been very adament about not having kids, but I'm starting to feel that little pull towards the idea of having them. It still won't be for a while, but I'm warming up to the idea.
Merry Christmas!
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